stella

prophecy

jan 13, 2003
security - friends

I have revised this story over and over. I might want to send it to a lit journal but it’s impossible to tell if it’s good enough. I still don’t think it makes enough sense. people in the workshop last fall said he was horrible and she was a slut which I think means they couldn’t find a way inside. it’s so hard to soften the walls.
I suppose I will send it and it will be my silly first publication and I was laugh about it when I am asked what my first publication was at the many readings I will give during my life. I will say it was a silly story of a silly girl and a horrible man and that I was fixated on that plot when I was young due to mysterious events but once I was finally published, I could let go of it and write about things that didn’t make others so angry and uncomfortable. But then again maybe it won’t be that way. Maybe I will write about this forever and I’ll never come up with anything brilliant or different but always just a stupid …